If you have been able to talk to me sometime this week, you probably have realized how stressed and out of character I was. Sometimes, when things get tough, usually the best thing to do is sleep. Sleeping is how I usually get over any of my unwanted feelings. However, this week was different.
Do you every feel so damn empty inside to the point you don’t even recognize yourself anymore…? Well, that was how I felt this entire week. I have no clue why I had felt this way. I felt so useless to the world. Like I had no purpose. I just wanted it all to end. Some of the most important people in my life made me feel so little and dumb for something that I did not mean to happen. Some called me a liar, some called me irresponsible and immature, and to be honest, I’m fine if people find me this way. I just want them to all know that I never meant for anything as such to happen. Yes, I will take full responsibility, and if they want to punish me, then I am also fine with that.
None of this even matters to me. It’s just hurtful to see some people call you things that you know you are not. Usually, I have this feeling every time someone accuses me of something I am not, and I want to tell them the entire story and just hope for the best. But the honest truth is, even if I end up telling the entire story, some will still call me a liar. I’m sorry that I do not know how to explain myself the right way, and due to this, I silently get in trouble for something I have never done. I usually don’t argue when I get in trouble, even if it was something I have never done. Because I know that at some point of the story, It was also my fault. Like I said before, I usually get rid of feelings by sleeping. However, when I am not able to sleep, I usually try to write all my feelings in some sort of blog/notebook or anywhere really.
I guess im a trouble maker, however, people will never know that half of the trouble I get in, I actually wasnt even involved in. Like I said before, I usually get rid of feelings by sleeping. However, when I am not able to sleep, I usually try to write all my feelings in some sort of blog/notebook or whatever. Its the only way I get all the stress and anger out. Releaseing stress while writing is great way to let any unwanted feelings out. It’s my way of letting unwanted feelings out.
I use this techniqe daily. I have a jornal which I write in daily about all the things that had happened on that day. I know some people find that werid, but I just find it as another way to let all my feelings out. I also do this because I want reread them notes in the far future and just reflect on how life was back then and how it is right now.
Another way I use a lot is listening to music. Music brings out our best and our worse at the same time. Listening to music usually, calms me down and helps me realize what is happening in my life. The type of music I lean for when things get difficult are ones with many relatable lyrics. So, when I’m sad, I like listening to sad music, because it would be easier to reflect on.
When I go through difficult times, I usually try to act cool about it. I hide it from people as much as possible. This is a benafit from being good in drama class. Anyways, these are just my own ways to get through difficult times.
Remember to always smile... :)